Been a long time
Posted 2 months ago at 3:59 pm. 0 comments
It’s been over two months since I last posted. I’ve been very busy, and had a lot of things happen in both my professional and personal life. When you own a business (or partner in several), there’s a lot of pressure and stress. When you work from home, it’s hard to separate work and home. They spill over onto each other. In today’s world, we all stay connected, answering emails or phone calls on nights and weekends, keeping yourself available in case something happens or someone needs something. As usual, I did some travelling recently. My phone has email and various IM clients (AIM, Gtalk, and Yahoo! are the main ones I need right now), so of course I stay available, even while sitting in an airport waiting for the next flight. But as I said, professional and personal spill over sometimes. I received some bad news about a friend of mine last week, she was hurt very badly in a car accident, paralyzed from the waist down. Knowing her well, this had a not good affect on me, and it spills over. I was very distracted for a few days, and still am now at times. What if’s, maybe’s, fearing the worst, it all pops in my head at random times. Constant worry for someone I cared a great deal about.
News like this is never easy. But you have to learn from it. Learn to appreciate what you have, to see a self-destructive pattern you’ve been ignoring, to make the changes needed, to look out for yourself. I’ve stated before that I hold several jobs. A lot of people rely on me for my skills and knowledge, and it’s tough because of that. I’ve been trying to take care of everyone, get everything done as quickly as possible, please everyone as best I can. Obviously this can’t happen. It’s impossible. So now I’m stepping back, taking a look at what I’ve been doing, how I’ve been killing myself to get everything done. Now I’m contemplating changes that’ll better improve my life, and allow me to enjoy what I have a little more. Life is too short, too fragile, it’s too easy to lose; take the time to enjoy yourself and what you have, it can all be taken away at any minute.